لفتت انتباهي كلمات هذه القصدية للشاعر كونراد وقلت انه لا بد ان يكون هناك كارثة حلت به في طفولته جعلته بهذه السوداويية وفتشت عن حياتة وطفولته فوجدت انها كارثية بكل ما في الكلمة من معنى. ادناه ترجمة لما واجهه في طفولته المبكرة:

Conrad Potter Aiken (August 5, 1889 – August 17, 1973) was an American novelist and poet, whose work includes poetry, short stories, novels, a play and an autobiography.

Biography

Aiken was the son of wealthy, socially prominent New Englanders who had moved to Savannah, Georgia, where his father became a respected physician and brain surgeon.

But then something happened for which, as Aiken later said, no one could ever find a reason.

Without warning or apparent cause, his father became increasingly irascible, unpredictable, and violent.

حيث وبدون صابق انذار اصبح والده رجل غاضب ومتقلب المزاج وعنيف.

Then, early in the morning of February 27, 1901, he murdered his wife and shot himself.

وفي صبيحة 27/2/1901 ( اي وعمر كونراد 11 عام ) قتل زوجته وانتحر.

According to his own writings, Aiken (who was eleven years old) heard the gunshots and discovered the bodies.

وحسب ما كتب كونراد لاحقا قال انه سمع طلقات النار وهو الذي اكتشف الجثث

He was raised by his aunt in Massachusetts. Aiken was educated at private schools and at Middlesex School in Concord, Massachusetts, then at Harvard University where he edited the Advocate with T. S. Eliot who became a lifelong friend and associate.

ربته خالته ودرس في مدار خاصة ثن جامعة هارفد حيث اصبح صديق تي اس اليوت

Aiken's earliest poetry was written partly under the influence of a beloved teacher, the philosopher George Santayana. This relation shaped Aiken as a poet deeply musical in his approach and, at the same time, philosophical in seeking answers to his own problems and the problems of the modern world

تأثر باحد مدريسية وهو فيلسوف وانعكس ذلك على شعره حيث كان يبحث عن حلول فلسفية لمشاكلة ومشاكل العالم الحديث.